I hate looking at pictures that I took of you.

Not because it’s you.  I love you like no other, and I’m sure I’ll never love more.  But I despise myself for taking photos, wasting time.  When I look at them, It makes me wonder why I wasn’t next to you, clinging onto you.  Why was I waiting for you to smile, when you never do that for photos and you smiled so much when I wasn’t behind my lens. I wasted so much time.  I wish I could go back so badly and destroy my camera, or drop it into the Mon; Spend more time with you, and look at you with my own eyes.  Thinking about selling my camera before I see you again.  But it just always feels right at the time to try and savor those moments so well.  

I hate my camera, it’s worse than the pills I take. 

3 Notes

  1. butthenshedrowned said: I just want to wrap you in a blanket of hugs and take you to a happy place. My cries……. :’(
  2. colorfulnames said: But pictures are nice to look back on, picture the moment, I have three with savannah and I wish sooo badly to have taken more to just look at when I miss her
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